God Saw a Cross...: What God has taught me through the STORMS

So, I know some of you may be wondering how we have been doing. I must say that the past several weeks have been a roller coaster and very busy. I was able to miscarry on my own on Saturday and I go into the Dr's tomorrow to be sure it was complete. I was very scared and worked up about it all and it took a week in a half to actually happen. I must say, strangely enough...it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I have heard from so many people how painful it is and so many other things that concerned me that I was scared and worked up not knowing what to expect. I praise the Lord for being my strength and for giving me such a wonderful support system. When Josh, Bro. Steve, Mrs. Nancy, the kids and I were in town and I knew it was finally happening I called my mom and she and my sister came to meet us at the house. It was nice having them here to keep me busy and we even made Whoopie Pies...YUM! Bro. Steve and Mrs. Nancy (Our Revival speaker and his wife) went to the camper to get ready for Sunday and allow our family sometime to cope, but couldn't leave without offering help and letting us know they were there if we needed them. What a blessing they were to us. Everything went very smooth and I must say it is a relief that it is all over. Now that you know all of went on, more importantly I need to share with you what God has taught me through it all.

#1. God taught me in II Timothy 1:7 "For God hath not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."

I was scared and fearful and sometimes I still am of the future, but I know God doesn't want us to live fearfully, but know that we have His power and His love to get through anything, which in turn (if we allow it to) should give us a sound mind. I claim this verse everyday.

#2. He also taught me Proverbs 22:6 "Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it."

So many times when we go through trials in our lives, we tend to start allowing little things to slip by because we are in so much pain and don't feel like dealing with it sometimes. My children are well behaved, but there are a few things we have allowed to slip through the cracks because of all we have been going through over the past few months. Right after we lost our second baby, Lauren started saying, "NO" to everything. I must say, I really didn't have the energy to run after her constantly, but I did because I knew I would be sorry had I just let it go. I love my children so much and they mean to much to me to let little things go like that. I need to continue to train up my children no matter what we may be going through. Just because we grieve or hurt, we shouldn't let go of the other responsibilities God has given to us.

#3. And last but not least, He taught me Hebrews 13:5 "Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for He hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee."

It amazes me how many times we can quote this verse, but this time it spoke to me in a whole new light. In this verse God gives us a promise, to "never leave us or forsake us" I have spoken with many women that have been through similar situations that told me how bitter they got against the Lord and how long it took them to get through what they were going through. I must say it means so much to me that when I go through trials...I can claim this verse and promise, but have you ever thought about reversing it? Through these trials I must say that I don't ever want to be bitter against the Lord and I want to never leave Him, or simply walk away like there would be something better out there for me. I know I am saved and that I can't lose my salvation, but we can stray and push the Lord away. I can tell all of you that read this that I couldn't do it alone. I couldn't do it with just my husband, children, mom and all the other people out there. I NEED THE STRENGTH OF JESUS!!! To hold on to that promise and to promise it right back to Him. I can't imagine pushing away the only ONE who can truly give me strength, comfort and love through all of this.

If I must finish with anything I must say that I am so thankful I serve an almighty God! He really can get you through anything if you only just allow Him. I have thought so much about the people that don't have the Lord to help them and because I have Him I can't imagine not allowing Him to help. Thank you Lord for always being there for me. We can't do it in our own strength, we NEED HIM!

On a lighter note, we had a great Revival and enjoyed so much seeing our Pastor and Pastor's Wife from Poplar Bluff, MO. We have not seen them in 4 years and they were such a blessing to my family. It was a great week and it kept me busy as we have been facing our trials, but there is no better place to be then then to be serving an Almighty God. We had a great turn out and God really spoke to they hearts of the people in our church. We couldn't have asked for a better sermon series then the one God lead Bro. Steve's heart to preach. They are like another set of grandparents to our children and we all had such a blast.

Thanks for stopping by!!!